The Kingdom of God is Coming

Grad Essay is Underway......

2008-01-20T01:47:00.000-08:00

Hmmmm...... my final essay at seminary is underway....... ya, my grad essay after changing my program from M.Div to MACS......

Well, it's okay to change the program, but the change is not what I want to....... Anyhow, may be, He has different planning for me, who knows?! Haha....... :P

The topic is about how does parental divorce affect integrity of the children, and why do I choose this topic?? First, I was one of the "victims," the children of divorce. Second, more and more people choose to divorce, and so more and more suffered kids. Yet, there are insufficient resources and knowledge to understand their needs, so we donno how to help them.

Wonder and wonder, I understand myself more. And, may be, my friend(s) need(s) it too.

A month to go, may be less than a month..... for me to finish, find somebody to proofread, submit to my prof, amend and finalize my grad essay.

Ya, please pray for me if anyone of you reads this blog, haha...... thanks a lot....... q(^o^)p

God's Warriors -- CNN

2007-11-01T12:34:00.000-07:00

Accidentally turned to CNN yesterday nite and found a program called "God's Warriors," and it talked about Jewish, Muslim and Christian. It was a replay, and you can catch up on net if you missed it......

http://www.cnn.com/SPECIALS/2007/gods.warriors/

Some thoughts and highlights:
- End time is about Isreal, but how do the Jewish face now??
- Jewish Vs Muslim??
- Holy Land, who should owe it??
- So, more unstability or battle there??
- How did/do/will Jewish treat Christian, or vice versa??
- From the program, a Jewish says they will not be saved if they don't accept Christ Jesus; is their thought true?? --> Bible does talk about it, but.....
- Why does USA help Israel??
- What is the impact to your faith from the program??

The fall in Vancouver is So Beautiful.....

2007-10-31T15:23:00.000-07:00

The Fall in Vancouver is so beautiful although the sunshine and daytime are very short......

Yet, when seeing the red leaves, that's nothing you can depict but just exclaiming WOW........

It's soooooo Amazing about the creation and sustainance of this world........ ^6^

Here's a link of one of my four albums, enjoy the pretty scenery:

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=27745&l=03f80&id=568950358

Aiyoyo.......

2007-10-29T11:09:00.000-07:00

Aiyoyo...... haven't written anything since so many days ago lu, er...... laziness is a factor...... forgetfulness is another factor and what else....... haha....... :D

Raining so many days, and then having 2 days sunshine, but then going back to rainy days, oops....... and yet, went to so many places on those 2 days, like Burnaby Lake which is so beautiful, lunch with Paul, who is my Korean schoolmate, and also other pretty places around Coquitlam and Vancouver, good good good....... ^6^

May God bless Paul cos' he has a hard time in doing his part-time job besides study, and he also needs to take care of 2 little babies and his wife besides serving at church. Give him strength and wisdom, Lord; and yet, thank God that his wife does not have homesickness anymore, and that's so cool...... :)

And me....... pls help....... my grad essay brainstorming + preparation + research + outline and also....... my renewal and direction +....... Hmmmm.........

Some Thoughts......

2007-09-07T00:15:00.000-07:00

Just visited Greg's home today (6 Sept 2007) and saw his father. See through his eyes, he was not full of energy. Yet, he was a kind, nice and friendly uncle...... ^^

Well, in his eyes, I thought of my mum..... almost same age and status:

Greg didn't talk to him much, and I didn't talk to her much; however, Greg cared about him, and so did I. May be, we didn't know how to communicate w/ our parents; and my heart felt sour at that moment...... what can I do, and what can we do??

Uncle and I talked very much at meal time, while Greg was away to watch TV...... and he made good dishes, and he even gave me a fresh 鮑魚 after supper...... wow, it was tasty.....

Auntie passed away 2 years ago (if my memory is correct), but I know he missed her much..... and what did he face when his love left?? How did he feel?? How could he cope with the horrible fact?? Separation was horrible!! Eternal separation was even worst!! How about break-up?? How about not meet your Mr. or Mrs. Right?? Sigh..... >_<

God....... has mercy upon uncle, pls............
God....... has mercy upon my mum, pls...........
God....... has mercy upon Greg, pls..........
God....... has mercy upon me, pls........
God....... can You??

God still has mercy upon me..... ^^

2007-09-05T23:21:00.000-07:00

Thank God that I can stay longer after receving the "letter" yesterday..... ^^

The worst is: I lost my momentum, direction, mood and everything here...... sigh..... :(

I Just Want Simple Life, That's It.....

2007-08-31T21:37:00.000-07:00

I just want simple life, and that's what I want; however, how come it is so difficult for me to have such simple life.....

I just watta have a girl who loves me, and I love her too;
I just watta get married with her after 2 years or so of courting;
I just watta have our own family with at least 2 kids;
I just watta have a simple and happy life thereafter with her and the kids and surely my mother and her households.....

But...... what on earth is it so difficult for me...... >_<
Again and again, I can't advance........ :(
Are You playing me??
Am I a loser forever??
Sigh.........................

How Life can be??

2007-08-23T01:59:00.001-07:00

How Life can be??

Can Life be smooth and straightforward??

Or, Life is full of competition, like a track racing??

Is Life with companion??

Or, run alone??

Nobody wants up and down, and nobody wants to be alone.... and neither do I. Therefore, may God show His mercy and grace upon me.... >_<

Insight from a Beggar

2007-08-23T01:18:00.000-07:00

Drove through Marine Drive on the way to the Secret place, and I saw a baggar on the street. An idea popped up: Will a beggar or a poor person spend time to feel down or sad about an unhappy event, or will they carry on to earn for life??

For us, we may spend time to feel sad cos' we may not worry about our living (may be), but poor people may not (insight) worry too much about it cos' earning for living matters much...... Agree or not??

Better or Worser??

2007-08-21T22:22:00.000-07:00

I had a strange dream before I suddenly woke up: I met a group of old H.K. secondary classmates, and I said to them, "Don't beat me, don't beat me." (Something like that, I can't recall exactly) They led me to a chapel, but it turned out to be a restaurant; a man was sitting there, and there were so many dishes on the table. The man named "Henry;" I knew him in the dream, but I don't think I know him in reality. Who was this Henry?? Why was there a group of my old classmates whom I never dreamed before?? This Henry looked like Rev. Wing Wong but he also looked like Rev. Arnold Yeung..... Hmmmm...... weird dream!! Any hidden meaning?? Or, just normal dream??

Anyhow, I played squash w/ Greg tonite like the past few weeks. After the game, we ate together. I shared w/ him about my struggle to the future and my idea about God seemed like "kicking" me back to H.K. I have nothing to miss here now: not many close buddies, not like the minstry here, and no more her; cf. to past, I love here, but now....... oh well....... sigh...... >_<

Bourne Ultimatium

2007-08-20T22:26:00.000-07:00

I saw the Bourne Ultimatium at Metro (1200) today, and the film was so cool.....

Also, my mood was a bit better after watching the movie; however, it got worse again after seeing her MSN info..... sigh.....

Come on, heal me, strengten me and prepare for me, plssssssssssssssssssssss, Lord!!

Drastic Change?!

2007-08-20T22:11:00.000-07:00

Will you change drastically after 9 days?? Well, it surely depends, but it should NOT be much.

If there is a huge change after that time span, there is nothing wrong with the surrounding people but the one who suddenly changes.

Well, perhaps, some kind of excitement, wildness, selfishness, "flower heart" (in Chinese), disloyalty, waywardness and disrespect, etc.

Then, a lot of seemingly reasonable and holy excuses + lies + you have to bid me but no other choices, etc.

Can we stand this kind of person?? Can we respect them?? They "think" they are right, and you have to follow what they say, demand and think no matter what!!

Don't say I feel sorry; don't say I am right.... Come on, and it does NOT make any sense!! Sigh, so frustrated and upset about this kind of person.....

Frustrated and Disgusted.....

2007-08-19T23:35:00.000-07:00

Sigh..... I watta get back to my normal sleep cos' I have not been sleeping well for more than half a month!! What is normal sleep?? It means that I can sleep at nite and wake up in the morning; however, I can only sleep at dawn or even early morning...... oh man......

Stress is a factor, and disappointment / upset / feeling being betrayed / being told lies / feeling disgusted with somebody's act + speech + thought / left behind / loneliness / loss sense of security, hope, future..... etc are another factors, so much bitter and disgusted!!

Blog Again.....

2007-08-19T00:40:00.000-07:00

Here I am, and I start blogging again since almost 2 years ago.....

Well, perhaps, blog is a good place that you can write down and talk about your inner secrets, which you can't and don't want talking to other people at this moment.....

Hmmmm..... so sad these days and don't watta do anything but just want to leave this place for a period of time...... >_<